They’re disturbing, among other things. I’d watched the first series of Cold Case Files on Netflix when it came out and hadn’t watched it again until I was at my parents’ house Friday and they had it turned on. Watching murder shows can be intriguing but depressing if I watch them for hours on end or multiple days in a row. Especially if there’s rape involved because that just makes my blood boil. But with every episode, especially the unsolved mysteries, I wonder what happened exactly. I wonder if a situation like that happened to me if I would be able to fight back and survive. It’s bad enough to have something terrible happen to you or someone you love, but to not know who did it, why, or sometimes even what happened or where the body is, makes it even worse in my opinion. The unknown can be frustrating. Personally, I’d rather know something for sure than to let mysteries abound. From murder to Bigfoot. Because I believe our eyes play tricks on us, especially if something is moving fast, but I also believe it’s possible for the unknown to exist. Though without definite proof what can truly exist?
I bought trees off Amazon for my model and didn’t realize they’d be so tiny! They’re maybe the size of the top half of my finger, maybe a little bit taller. Being so small I now have to figure out the scale size. With bigger trees that means smaller objects such as rocks, plants, streams, are easier to size than with the tiny trees I got. The tiny trees make things more miniscule. But bigger trees are more expensive and you get much less in the package.
The manager at my old job was supposed to call me last Monday but never did and I’ve gone back and forth over whether or not to make a point to talk to him. My siblings are adamant I not go back there but my old coworker really wants to work with me again. But my parents were talking yesterday about masks possibly being imposed again and potentially a lockdown so I’ve decided to wait. Wearing a mask and doing the kind of work I did was terrible. Besides, no call that Monday or the next day that he worked could be forgetful but no call over a week later? Maybe there’s a reason he didn’t call, like they didn’t want to offer me the job back. Everything happens for a reason I suppose.
Mikaela Nicole 