That’s what I have to keep telling myself much more than I’d like these days. It’s not that I’m always indecisive, my perfectionist side has become more prominent, and I don’t take it easy on myself when I make a mistake. I like to make sure I always make the right decision, which I know, there’s not always a clear “right” choice and few people can say which decision is better than another. Sometimes having other people weigh in can only make things more uncertain, especially if there’s an advocate for each choice.
Anyway, I have three things I’ve been unable to decide on. One of them was if my sisters and I should go to Lake George or Shenandoah for our short trip. I had finally settled on Lake George when my sister said we should go to Virgina instead because she wanted to go somewhere new.
Second thing is if I should take another step up in my job to Keycarrier, which is a type of management. I’m told it’d be good for me and I think it would be. It’d help me get out of my shell even more and I would find out how I would handle even more responsibility. But having more responsibility is what gives me pause, also the thought that I’d be able to make new mistakes and we always do so I know I’d make some. I have to keep reminding myself I’m only human, it won’t be the end of the world when/if I do make one. I also don’t like the thought of someone else temporarily stepping into my current position while I learn Keycarrier. But, to make up my mind about this, I am taking a trip to Texas.
That is my third and biggest decision I have to make: whether I should stay in New York or move to Texas. Pets aren’t very welcome in apartments around here. I really liked Texas when I took a trip there last year and it doesn’t get as cold there, I’m not much of a winter person. No matter what I decide to do, it’s going to cost money. Another draw about Texas is that it’ll change things up and I’m feeling like I could really use a change in my life. Only thing . . . maybe that’ll be too much of a change?
I’ll have plenty of thinking time because this week I am on vacation!! It feels strange trying to relax, in September it’ll be almost a year since my last vacation. And I’m taking more vacation time in September, I probably won’t want to go back to work at the end of this week. Actually, that’s probably not true. I love my job and my coworkers.
This week will be good for my writing though. I’m making progress on the second book in the Shift series and the place we’re staying at in Shenandoah doesn’t have internet or a tv. Talk about a good way to focus on writing, which I will be bringing with me. I’d better be able to knock out a good portion of it.
Mikaela Nicole 